Small Change, Big Problem Chapter 6

I stayed in bed for ha;f of the day, it was around 3: 00 PM and I wanted it to be dark so I can fall asleep already. I'm in my bed, staring at the sun as it mocks me. I sighed, right now I'm not feeling my best. I have this warm feeling in my stomach. I don't like it. It's, Love, caring. I hated it and I wish it was over already. I had the room dark to help the darkness come out from hiding.

Shit. I thought, I had to pee, bad. No. I will not pee. I will force my body what to do and tell it who is in charge. I will go when I feel like it. Right now, nothing is getting in my way. I stayed there as I said I would, I was a good boy as a child, I did what I was told so it was pretty easy.

My bladder put up a fight it pushed on me hard and it was painful. It wants to control me. It wants me to get up and pee now so it can laugh at my loss. I will not. I will stay, I will not pee. I will stay here in pain and wait until I feel like peeing.

I am in charge now.

After getting tired of being anti-soical I decided I would go in the living room to at least see the boys. I have still not peed yet, and I wasn't planning on it soon. I got up and wobbled into the living room as the laughs I had heard had been killed when I walked in. Oh yeah, Harry Styles, the buzz kill. I thought. I slowly walked to an empty seat on the couch, ignoring the stares I had gotten. I slowly sat down, and stared back at them, and pulled a fake smile.

They were now talking about Niall's food issue. Niall was talking about a bacon cheese burger and chips he had and it tasted good. Then they all laughed and Liam told him he had an issue when it came to food. I felt like laughing, but also, if I did, I felt like I would let my guard down, I would be happy again, I would fall right in their trap. So I just bit my bottom lip and listened.

"I do not have eating issues!" I heard Niall protest. Having them talk about food made me want to pee more, but I did not feel like getting up and walking all the way to the bathroom. So I continued to lay, shut up, and listen. Like I've been doing for months. "You are so!" Louis fought back. "It's true." Liam added. "You eat like every minute!" Zayn joked. Everyone looked at me, waiting for me to say something about Niall's eating problem. I stood there, silent for a moment before I found my voice and choked out "Y-yeah..." They all looked at Niall in victory. "See! I told you!" Liam said cheerfully. Niall sighed "Oh well, doesn't mean I'm going to stop." He smiled with his bright teeth.

"Alright then, how about to make you happy we go walk to grab a quick bite to a cafe I saw across the street."  Liam asked. I saw Niall smile huge and nodded with not hesitation. They all looked excited and all looked at me again. I looked straight back and asked "What?" Then I heard Louis say "You coming with us to eat?" I sighed. "Sure, just let me pee first."